Goal: lose 30 pounds.

I failed and had eight Starbursts. Yesterday they were filling--today they were not. I'm so glad I brought them home for my little sister and brother to eat.

I'm going to do this because I'm unhappy with my body. I'm always unsatisfied, but I'm especially filled with rage now because I'm the heaviest I've ever been. I don't need to step on a scale because the consequences are physical and devastating (to me). I wish I had a fast metabolism.

Now: working on organic chemistry. WHY DO YOU HAUNT ME SO. I am chewing gum and drinking water like there's no tomorrow. I must expel expel expel. Maybe I'll undergo a salt flush or something, since I'll finally be near a bathroom, lol.

Tomorrow: hot yoga. I'm super excited. And then birthday party where I engage in some face-painting excitement. Afterwards, some MCAT business, if I don't pass out first. I might even try to review the first nine sessions, aka the first half of MCAT class. I don't come prepared at all, and I realized just how much more I knew if I actually did the readings. lmao.

My ear is hurting, and sometimes there is a slight shoot of pain on the left side of my head. Also, my throat is kind of sensitive. I'm freaking out because I don't want to pull a Natasha Richardson. I think this warrants for extra hand-washing after ever orgo lab now.